Me being an impulsive dork and dumping her for a far less intelligent girl with bigger breasts who didn’t even really happen even. That was it. Game over. She wouldn’t take me back.

TBH I should’ve ended myself then but was too stupid to even realise that was the better option than living another 20 years without her. Still… I wouldn’t have wanted to hurt my parents. Been distracting myself ever since with lots of other stuff. Can’t do it now because of my kids, and mother still alive. Dad fucked in head with dementia. Oh well. Keep trudging on and now have Lemmy to make stupid comments on. Yay.

[–] thorbot@lemmy.world 8 points 9 months ago (1 children)

Hang in there. Consider talking to a therapist.

[–] Tristaniopsis@aussie.zone 3 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) (1 children)

One foot in front of the other. Look for the positives. Know that the perfection I imagine is nostalgic nonsense and it wouldn’t have worked out anyway. We’re just meaningless meat bags of hormones and bullshit. Meh. Whatever. There’s no ‘meant to be’ there’s just ‘is’ , and that too shall pass.

But yeah , thanks.

[–] thorbot@lemmy.world 4 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) (2 children)

That’s a wise take(the first part … until you edited more into the comment) Dwelling on what ifs will never get you anywhere

[–] Tristaniopsis@aussie.zone 3 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

I reckon even Buddha had a chick he wishes he didn’t bail on. Edit: btw it’s 2:50 for me and have to get up in 3 hours. I’m going to try to sleep.
Cheers.

[–] Tristaniopsis@aussie.zone 1 points 9 months ago

Sorry re edit. Yes. I’m good at wide takes.