I think this is why so many people are pulled into this kind of thinking. I can't say I don't sympathise. I do believe that a better world is possible, but it feels increasingly unlikely that I'll get to see it.

I do what I can to push for things to improve, through political organising and supporting my community in whatever way I can, but it's hard not to become morally burnt out when I know that I'm doing only a fraction of what I theoretically could be due to constantly struggling to keep my head above water. That's how the capitalist engine continues to chug onwards as it does.

Here's the part where I wish I could say something reassuring, but I can't. I'm far younger than you are, so I know that if I'm feeling exhausted, then it would be trite and foolish to think I could make you feel hopeful about your future when I don't even know if I have hope for myself. In lieu of hope, please accept this offer of solidarity. It doesn't do much to change the suckish reality we find ourselves in, but nonetheless, it feels important to highlight that you're not alone in feeling this way. For what it's worth, I'm glad you're still with us, and I hope that you find some solace, in this life or the next.