That one still haunts me oftentimes (though not as much as it used to) about a decade later. They were my long-term boyfriend at the time and after our mutual long-term girlfriend passed away suddenly we both fell off the wagon hard.

I made it out the other side of the path of self destruction, they didn't.

And when they passed I fell even harder into alcoholism.

My wakeup call was when my doctor asked how many drinks I had per week and when I told him he had me go through the math right there for how I calculated it. It was over 300.

I was there because of some health issues that turned out to be liver problems.

I got sober a few months later.

Sobriety can be a real bitch to maintain at first but it gets easier the longer you're sober. Especially if you utilize the new found clarity of mind to address the causes of your addiction.

I'll never drink again.