Banana

Reminds me of a line from Festival Song by Jeff Rosenstock:

"We're not stupid people, but this financial depression
Has got everyone believing all that we can do is nothing
'Cause we organize through avenues they lace with advertisements
So the ones we try to rage against are still lining their pockets"

Yeah the only reason I can catch it is years of studying how other people communicate, but I've basically stopped masking in social situations at this point in my life. I think a lot of folks find it refreshing when you communicate directly

I and my relationship are proof that the quickest pathway to true love is to fucking embarrass yourself. It's surprisingly human and endearing.

Always has been

Idk if your standards are "too high" if the result is quality over quantity. You just didn't waste your time with people who weren't right for you. That's a good thing!

I say keep talking about the weird and sciencey shit because although you may not have met a lot of girls that are into that stuff yet, if you self express a lot and do the things you enjoy, you will inevitably meet somebody that likes the same things, and there are a lot of women that like it.

To be fair I don't know how old you are. If you're in highschool I say be patient, the whole world opens up once you're out and socializing with people by choice and not because you're in a class with them, if you're older than highschool, put yourself out there and don't try to perform as someone else just to get a date because they'll be attracted to the performance and not you.

I'm the same way, I'm autistic and assume everyone else also doesn't get subtext and social cues so I just say what I mean and honestly, when they say 'tism rizz, it just means not being afraid of embarrassment or rejection.