What does that even matter?
Maybe I don't want to be alive? Maybe being alive was something that was done to me? Maybe being born into the family and body I have is the trick?
Like, you sound so pedantic, bitter and quite angry about something people say to express something happening slowly without necessarily noticing how bad it is until something brings it to their attention.
Believe it or not, and this may be hard to grasp, but not everyone experiences life the way you do in your head.
But you're not discussing it, your projecting your world views on others and making accusations and assumptions about me. Which I don't really appreciate. You neither know me, how my mind works or what I've gone through. It also seems like you may or may not understand how mental health issues can affect cognition or perception.
So with that, I'll end the conversation there.