it_wasnt_arson

I'm sorry, I'm not sure I understand. Who are "they," and what is "that" in your initial reply?

So? That's their problem. There are people who'd dance on my grave if I died tomorrow, too, and what they think has just as little bearing on my decision to keep living. Categorically irrelevant. You can't show someone the beauty and joy of living by dragging them through shame. Worse still, pegging your self-worth to others' suffering creates an implicit threshold, a thought stuck in the back of your mind: "What if the suffering I cause now is more than the momentary pain I'd cause by stopping?"

It feels good to tell people things like this. It's one of the most awful things to hear.

For years I lived right by the sea. I had plenty of alcohol and medications. the prevailing currents would've swept my body across the border into a hostile country, where no one who found it would've cared. I don't live to spare anyone else's feelings, not least those who would mourn me as dead for living the life I want to live. I live because I deserve it, I deserve my family's respect and care while we're both here, and I don't need anyone else's shame.

To live on solely for obligation and guilt isn't living at all, and anyone who wishes that on someone else just so they can remain a half-dead trophy they can congratulate themselves for "saving" can eat shit. If you're reading this and you need to hear something, keep going. Keep trying. We live in an insane world; sometimes you have to try the same thing over and over so you can get different results. Live another day and see what happens. Not for anyone else, but because it's a shame to miss out on this wild a ride.

This post honestly just pisses me off. Your life is worth living. Not your parents' child's life. Yours.

I'm pretty sure Creation Engine is a middleware relicensing nightmare. SpeedTree's SDKs are in there, Havok, the core NetImmerse libraries from the early 2000s that they forked... It's unlikely to ever see the light of day as a compilable source release, this century or probably ever. At least there's OpenMW, sloooowly catching up.

No, all the danger to children comes from satanic pedophiles cold-messaging strangers from trailer parks in hell. Billionaires can always be trusted with sensitive data and photos of children. Parents also notoriously never do anything bad to their children.

9 months is a typical direct transfer, using a traditional rocket engine whose thrust is so high you can basically treat it as infinite: accelerate up to your transfer speed in a few minutes and coast until you need to slow down in a similarly negligible amount of time. You need to set a lot of gas on fire in those few minutes, though. Electric propulsion is so low thrust that it can't put you on that kind of direct trajectory in one go, so the trip is more of a slow spiral around the sun with continuous thrust the whole way. The tradeoff for everything taking forever is unbelievable fuel savings, which is a surprisingly common occurrence in space travel.